Life

Why is it in life that humans feel like they need to be on a path in life? I dislike feeling the need to know where i'm going in life. I have no idea where I'm going... but i'm completely confident if I don't let me stubborness and human form get in the way... that God is in control. I know that God is always in control, but being able to give that up and give it completely to him makes me a little anxious. God is my refuge and my strength. I'm just praying for some direction. I thought Medical assisting, but that isn't working out because I LOVE helping out on monday nights at Jr. High youth group. And my class would be than. I know that I'm suppose to be helping with this wonderful kids. So, I know if it's suppose to be it will be. I feel like i need an education I'm just not sure what kind yet. i don't know if it's me or society that you feel like a failure if you don't have a college education. I just don't know. I feel like I want school so much, but at the same time, i feel like i'm going to fail myself with school. I'm not disclipined at all for school. How will i ever get a decent job? Lord God, please give me direction in my life. Because I really need it.