Breathing, and Praying

"some people have so much "Hate" inside themselves they dont even know it"

This was my recent relatives status on facebook. And it's about me. It kinda hurts, because they think that they know me so well, but they don't. They think that I have so much hate in me, when i don't. By voicing my opinion and going against their beliefs, I have hatred in my heart... that I'm not showing Christ's love, and I'm not being a Christian.  I would like to say, that I am human. I slip up, I make mistakes. And that's what makes Christ so wonderful. That He is perfect. That he doesn't make mistakes. That he LOVES me no matter what I do or say.

I'm sick and tired of being watched with a magnified glass by certain family members. Yes! I'm Human! Yes! I make mistakes! What else would you like me to say! Christ loves me no matter what I do, and no matter what you do. Your not perfect either! We all have human emotions, because we are human! I still have emotions about my parents divorce. I still have emotions about certain family members bashing my mom in front of me. How are you suppose to build a relationship when there is so much hurt and pain? I feel like we need to talk and pray about it. That's what i think we should do. I have never hated anyone in my life. I never hated Nancy. There is no hate. I'm human i have emotions. Happy, sad, angry, content, joyful, etc. Just like you.

A very dear friend told me, that it's OK to distance yourself from certain people that have so much negative in your life. I need Good energy in my life right now. I'm determined to become healthy. Physically, and emotionally. And I need to continue to have a positive outlook on life. When I keep hearing that "your are full of hate and anger" it makes me way to sad. It makes me sad that my own father won't stand up for me. But, I know that my Heavenly Father loves me no matter what. So, I just need to keep breathing. Because everything will be OK. And I will be praying for you.

In Christ Alone