God is Love.

There are no words to describe how Grateful I am for God sending his son to die on the cross for my sins.  I've been growing closer and closer with god. And let me tell you... it's simply amazing. God is completely transforming my mind. I feel like at being of the age of 22 years old (I know that's not very old to some), i feel like I should have my life figured out. Many people my age just graduated from college, or are having babies, or getting married. Which is all wonderful!! God bless them! God is entering them into a life changing experience! I felt like because everyone is moving forward in life, and i felt like at certain times I wasn't. This is how i used to feel. God is transforming my mind. And it's literally mind blowing. I used to think that being successful in life was to be married. Because than that meant that somebody loves you for you, that the person wants to spend the rest of their life and grow old with you.  Yes, I do want that. But only if that is in God's plan for me. Being married is a wonderful gift from God! But, if that is the gift that i'm not suppose to get.... than i'll be rejoicing either way. Because God has a plan for me. And he is going to use me! Not exactly do I know what for sure yet..... but, with being single right now....... I have no limitations of what I can do! If I want to go into the Peace Corps, I can. If I want to go to the Hillsong College in Australia, I can! If I want to go serve as a missionary in South Africa! I can! Being single right now in my life is a gift from God! I pray that many more young women and men, will see that it is a gift from God. It took me a long time to realize that. But, I'm content and loving being single, because i'm going to use it for God's Glory! And if it's ever time, God will make it known to me. So, right now i'm content, listening to God. Now, i'm just trying to figure out about the Peace Corps, or Hillsong College or South Africa :) I can't wait to see what God has in store for me.

God is Love! Don't ever forget that! He is with you all the time! If your at work, school, driving in your car! He is with you always!

Father's Day

Father's Day is probably one of the things that I don't look forward too. It makes me think of the relationship that I used to have with my Dad. And the love that used to be there. I know that my dad still loves me. But It's just not the same. So, I need to celebrate Father's day even though we don't have a relationship. So, I decided to celebrate the father that I used to know. The Father that I loved and adored for the first 14 years of my life. I will always love you Dad. And I know that your human and you've messed up, but let's do something about this relationship. Let's keep moving Forward not backwards.

                            From the beginning, you took care of us and loved us no matter what.

                             Everyone in the family respected each other. There was SO much love.

You were a Dad that was very involved in our lives. We felt so loved!

You would always be involved with the sports that we played. This is a picture of the four of us and you swore that you would never be like your Dad.. (not involved in your life at all) But you did.

 We would go fishing together, and I loved that time that we and you just had to ourselves. It was such a great bonding time for us. :)

I love my Dad so much! For the first 14 years of my life, he was such an amazing person that I could totally look up too! He was such a sweet, loving, family man, kind, wonderful, funny man!!!! I'm so grateful that I had 14 years to know my Dad. I love you and miss you everyday!


Now, to the other very special person in my life.... My Moda. This is the nickname that I came up with because my Mom is my Mom and Dad.  My Moda is such a wonderful person, and she deserves the best.  I'm so entirely grateful that I have this specific person in my life. I wouldn't have been able to go through the things that I went through without her. God has truly blessed me with giving me my Mom. 

You loved me from the beginning. And you'll always love me. Even when I'm a crabby person. You love me at my worst, and at my best. :)

We look so much a like! We always have the best time together!! :)

                                           We always seem to make our own entertainment :)

                           To us getting in trouble... But then we end up laughing about it later :)

I love you so much MODA!!! HAPPY FATHERS DAY!!!!!!!!

Thank you so much for stepping up when you didn't have too! I'm sure it's difficult to be both the Mom and Dad, But you did an awesome job!! I love you so much!! You mean so so much to me!! :)

Breathing, and Praying

"some people have so much "Hate" inside themselves they dont even know it"

This was my recent relatives status on facebook. And it's about me. It kinda hurts, because they think that they know me so well, but they don't. They think that I have so much hate in me, when i don't. By voicing my opinion and going against their beliefs, I have hatred in my heart... that I'm not showing Christ's love, and I'm not being a Christian.  I would like to say, that I am human. I slip up, I make mistakes. And that's what makes Christ so wonderful. That He is perfect. That he doesn't make mistakes. That he LOVES me no matter what I do or say.

I'm sick and tired of being watched with a magnified glass by certain family members. Yes! I'm Human! Yes! I make mistakes! What else would you like me to say! Christ loves me no matter what I do, and no matter what you do. Your not perfect either! We all have human emotions, because we are human! I still have emotions about my parents divorce. I still have emotions about certain family members bashing my mom in front of me. How are you suppose to build a relationship when there is so much hurt and pain? I feel like we need to talk and pray about it. That's what i think we should do. I have never hated anyone in my life. I never hated Nancy. There is no hate. I'm human i have emotions. Happy, sad, angry, content, joyful, etc. Just like you.

A very dear friend told me, that it's OK to distance yourself from certain people that have so much negative in your life. I need Good energy in my life right now. I'm determined to become healthy. Physically, and emotionally. And I need to continue to have a positive outlook on life. When I keep hearing that "your are full of hate and anger" it makes me way to sad. It makes me sad that my own father won't stand up for me. But, I know that my Heavenly Father loves me no matter what. So, I just need to keep breathing. Because everything will be OK. And I will be praying for you.

In Christ Alone

God, my life is yours.

"And I have seen the healing hand of God




Reaching out and mending broken hearts


Taste and see the fullness of His peace


And hold on to what's being held out


The healing hand of God"
 
I totally love this song, it takes my breath away every single time. God is so good and God is so great! He will always stick with me espeically when family doesn't.

God won't give us anything that we can't handle. I've learned that so much within the past eight years. God is great.
 
I decided that this year is going to be the start of a new chapter in my life. I'm going to focus on God completely, and just give everything completely over to him. I know that it's easier said than done. But, I continually have a peace in me that's saying that everything is going to be ok. I've been dealing with a lot with my family, and i get so upset and want answers to why these things are happening! Especially about my Grandma Dolly. But, when i get so upset i loose focus on my God, my creator. When i get upset it makes me want to take control and that means that i'm not trusting God. I'm constantly having to remind myself that these people that are doing wrong to my Grandma Dolly, won't and never will answer to me. They'll have to answer to God. God is great, and understanding. God is conquerer (sp?) of all evil. And for that i'm grateful. I have felt like in the past that i'm all by myself, but i know that God is constantly by me. I love my God, my creator. When I constantly remember that God is in control, I have a different outlook on my things. Only by God's grace. I don't know that I would do without God in my life. Actually, when i was away from the church for awhile, i was lost, i felt like i had nothing to live for. That has all changed.
 
God, my life is yours.
 
I can't wait to see how God is going to use me.
 
In Christ~
Megan